“A smooth sea never made a skillful mariner.” ~Anonymous

November 14, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized

Yay, first post! Let’s see how this works out. For those who are worried that I’m leaving my Xanga, I’ll post this entry there as well.

So today was a pretty good day! I got an A on my ARH test and then an A-/A on my UGS paper. Hurrah! Better good news is that I e-mailed my UGS professor asking about how grading will be done in that class since we get +/- letter grades back, and he said that any A is a 4.0. YES. I have a chance of getting a perfect score this semester, then. ^^

I haven’t gotten straight As since middle school! I got straight Bs in math and science and the occassional A in my social studies classes. This is wonderfullll! What’s lame is that if I get an A on something, I’ll just be like, “Oh, good. I just have to maintain this.” There’s this sense of relief. If I get a B or lower, I start worrying about not getting that A. Why’s it gotta be like that? Why can’t I just be like, “Ah, I got an A, which means I’m learning!” and not, “I have to maintain this.” I thought this mentality would go away once I was in college, that I would start caring more about learning and less about some letter grade that tells you how well you know the material, but I guess old habits die hard, hmm?

The two classes I’m worried about not acing are my UGS and CMS. CMS slightly less than UGS… I’m worried about CMS because the tests are pretty tricky and detailed. I remember I studied three days for the midterm and ended up with an 86. I remember when I got that grade, instead of patting myself on the back for the effort, I just felt like this was high school again – being stuck in the B-range. I’m so sick of Bs, ya know? Bs aren’t bad, but it’s not an A – it doesn’t set you apart from the rest of the herd. So yeah, I was just annoyed and a little upset. Other people told me they got low Bs or something, but I still didn’t feel any better… which is slightly different than high school since I used to compare my grades with others. Ah well, I can still make it, I hope!

Then UGS for obvious reasons. Dang, that class is supposed to be easy since it’s targetting freshmen! Wtheck, it’s my hardest class! I worked my butt off for my first paper and got a B-, which really made me feel like crap. But then I aced the next two papers, so that’s better. But then I got a B+ on the midterm, which made me sadface because that’s worth a lot. I was ONE question away from an A. You can imagine how upset I was since I mentioned the whole being-stuck-in-the-Bs thing. Ah well, I just have to try harder. I still have two more papers and a final to ace! ^^

But grades aside, everything else is cool. I can’t believe all the fun things I’ve done since I’ve gotten here. College really gives you a lot of opportunities! Heck, it hasn’t even been three full months yet, and I’ve watched a ton of movies, gone to karaoke, partied, met a celebrity, volunteered at a school, planned a conference, advertised, talked about where I want to go with an Advertising degree, decided to apply for the Business school as well when I wasn’t even considering it, looked for study abroad options, attended concerts and shows… crazy! It’s so much more alive in Austin than Sugar Land. I love it here… more so than I thought I would.

My eyes I have really been opened to the weirdness that is Austin. I’ve always known I was a naive person, so a lot of things have shocked me, but I’m learning. It’s a bumpy but fun journey. ^^

Now I have to go to the CMA to watch my speech on tape and write a self-evaluation. And then I have a meeting to go to in order to plan Heritage Week in April. And then I need to draft a letter for the BABFA conference to send to high school principals/counselors and businesses. And then I need to review another chapter for my CMS final. Maybe sneak in some ARH reading tonight. Busy, but productive!

Yanno, whenever I just feel too tired or lazy to do anything, I remember something Leeron told me a long time ago when we had a conversation online: “Don’t be lazy.” It’s such a simple thing, but that sentence has always stuck with me, haha. So thank you, Leeron! Other times, all I have to do is look up and my gaze lands on one of the Yunho posters in Kim’s and my dorm. Call me obsessed or crazy, but he’s great inspiration, too. You got to do your best and believe in yourself!

Fighting!! ^^